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  for when she’s feeling blue

  poetry by edgar holmes (c) 2018 Edgar Holmes also by edgar holmes:

  her favorite color was yellow my love,

  in my first book, i wrote about how much i loved you. in my second book, i am writing you messages of hope and inspiration for when you’re feeling blue. i hope that you will always remember them when you need them most.

  edgar CHAPTERS

  Chapter One Blue

  Chapter Two Night

  Chapter Three Hope

  Chapter Four Light

  Chapter One Blue i know that nothing can cure

  the sadness

  embedded deep within your heart

  but love

  can crack open your shell and let in the light

  my love, i will always be here when you need me most

  to love you

  and hold you close

  i know that sometimes

  you feel

  as if the world is collapsing on top of your head

  but do not lose hope because i know you and i know that you are strong enough to hold up the chaos and find your peace even when it seems impossible

  i hate their ignorant

  statements

  the way they tell you to stop worrying

  or think positive thoughts as if such trite quips could suddenly cure

  the chemical imbalance in your brain

  if only depression was that simple i wish that i was able to take the burden off your shoulders

  and though i cannot voyage into your mind

  and help you carry

  your sadness and fear

  know that i

  am right here beside you through it all

  you taught me that pain

  is not something to hide,

  that scars shouldn’t be hidden under long sleeved shirts i wish that my love for you could overflow these pages and inscribe itself permanently onto your skin

  so that you never forget you are

  l o v e d you cannot help but compare yourself to everyone else

  but know this, my love there is no one on earth who compares to you in any way

  you are my definition of perfect

  i love the way

  your eyes look

  as i wake up next to you in the morning sleepy, content, so effortlessly beautiful your insecurities creep up on you and tell you

  you are not enough

  but you are do not forget that as long

  as i have you to wake up to

  everything will be just fine don’t be afraid to take some time to take care of yourself

  self care

  is the easiest thing

  to forget

  you ask me if you are too much to handle. my darling, i would light the world on fire just to dance in the flames with you.

  i will never let you go no matter how hard things get

  i will always hold you close feel your heartbeat against mine

  i have always been afraid

  of growing old but now

  having loved you

  i now see that i was afraid of the wrong thing

  i’m not afraid of growing old i’m afraid of growing old, knowing that i lost a love as powerful as ours, the only thing that made life

  meaningful.

  it is okay

  to admit

  that you are broken

  we cannot all be strong all the time it is okay to take the time to piece yourself back together mistakes

  when turned into lessons are not mistakes at all

  all that matters is that we learn as we live on

  do not be too hard on yourself dear god,

  show me how

  to take the happiness she gives me

  and give it back to her i know that you shy away

  when i take pictures of you but know that i will cherish each and every one of these sacred memories as we look back

  on a life well lived together

  her soul

  is a patch of soil

  what you plant there she will grow

  so place where you can seeds of lovely roses

  compliments and hope and affirmation and watch her bloom love grows the most beautifully

  for those who have the patience

  to take care of it tenderly

  the angels dance

  at your laughter

  and heaven shines down when you smile

  if i could only be a mirror

  for the light she is in my life

  i could light the whole world

  with her love the greatest gift life gave me

  was spending time with you

  i want to love you better

  than anyone else has ever loved you before

  i shudder to think that in another life i had to live

  without you

  you

  are a field of sunflowers in human form when you’re feeling blue know that there is nothing that i wouldn’t do for you x Chapter Two Night when the night seems to stretch on forever and it feels like hope will never come over the horizon

  again

  know that dawn always comes and hope

  will return to you in due time

  nothing could have prepared me for the tremendous sadness of thinking

  i had lost you

  i knew it was true love when i couldn’t stop loving you

  not just in the good times but when things were hard the night is long and hope may feel lost but do not forget that there is always a silver lining

  the thing about the night is it’s the only time you can see the stars a thousand nights

  in bed together and yet

  every night

  it always feels

  as if there is something new to try

  men:

  take all of the energy you waste

  on checking out other girls and liking their photos on instagram

  and use it

  on your woman

  to show her

  how much you desire her

  never let her feel unwanted

  we are invincible as long as we tell each other the truth

  a relationship built on trust is strong enough

  to withstand

  the winds of petty jealousies i wish that every time you looked in the mirror you saw the same perfection that i see

  every day

  you have made it through

  tough times before do not let

  the difficulties ahead make you forget

  how far

  you have already come the world is too vast and dense

  to leave a legacy

  i know that i will be forgotten

  soon after i die

  no matter how much i try to fight against

  that fact

  but as long as i know i made your life

  better

  that will be enough for me

  though i think you are perfect know that this is not because i put you

  on some pedestal

  i don’t think you’re perfect because you have no flaws i think you’re perfect because you live your life with such beautiful freedom unafraid

  of being seen

  for who you truly are

  one of the many ways

  i know i love you

  is because of small silly things

  like the times

  i’ve cheated at games

  to let myself lose

  and let you win

  i just love to see your joy at small little things and i’d rather see you happy than just try to win

  i don’t care

  if there is no more purpose to my life

  than loving you br />
  that is more than enough for me

  your love softened my hard edges and sewed up

  the wounds

  of past heartbreaks i always thought

  that i

  wasn’t tough enough and that no girl would ever love me because i was not ‘manly’ enough

  but you loved me for who i am

  without caring

  about silly things like that

  i only hope

  i can show you

  the same

  unconditional love let’s sneak out

  onto the roof just like old times with some rose petals and a bottle of wine

  let’s look at the stars and admire the sky let me tell you i love you as i look in your eyes i know there will be

  good days

  and bad days i think

  it’s almost more important to show you i love you on the bad days

  than it is

  on the good days

  there’s something about persevering

  even when it isn’t easy though i love to admire you with my eyes

  i also love

  to admire you with my hands lips

  and tongue

  in the darkness don’t let

  their unkind words get to you

  they are just jealous

  of your effortless goodness i will rub the stress out of your shoulders until you are sound asleep then tuck you into bed with a glass of water by your bedside table when you’ve found someone who lights your heart on fire

  what’s the use in waiting

  or holding back? i want to spoil you in every way

  possible

  x Chapter Three Hope hope

  does not exist

  without despair

  for if it did

  it would have no meaning

  realize that in the same way your triumph

  over your struggles

  will be all the more powerful because of the struggle you went through

  it doesn’t have to be elaborate

  but spending time

  with your partner

  is so important

  just taking a walk or having a picnic don’t forget

  to spend time together people love each other in different ways

  a lot of pain can be avoided by communicating

  how you want to be loved and how your partner

  wants to be loved

  treat your relationship like it’s important and put in the work to make it last

  yin and yang your body

  and mine

  harmony

  reflection symmetry so this is what it feels like

  to be all in on someone

  no safety nets, no second options my love, i am absolutely committed

  to you

  you look at the path ahead and see

  that you have

  so much further

  to go

  but i want you to realize that every inch is a victory and you can be proud of yourself

  to have made it this far know this:

  i will always be there arms wide open

  ready

  to catch you

  when you fall

  you

  are the reason the sun shines in the morning as long

  as you keep

  holding on

  to your hope that things

  will get better

  then nothing can truly

  stop you

  arguments happen

  even between the best of couples the important thing is to stay determined to move past it and mend

  what has been broken sometimes it feels like there could never be a remedy

  for your broken heart

  but do not forget that even the worst of wounds heal

  if given enough time you can’t escape your troubles in a bottle of whiskey

  you may be able to push them below the surface for the night

  but they will always come back to the surface in the morning

  who needs getting high

  when i have you you make me feel high

  all the time

  fate did not

  bring us together across vast distances and through many tribulations

  just to let us fall apart when we need each other most

  the only thing

  more important

  than having nothing to hide

  is being with someone who trusts you enough to not check

  if you do

  you make me feel

  w h o l e in ways no one else ever did before

  i wish i could fall in love with life

  half as well

  as you do

  more than anything else

  that we are just human reach out

  with open arms

  and a forgiving heart hope

  is my hand in yours

  you

  in my arms me

  telling you everything is going

  to be alright what made you fall in love in the first place she was the lightning shooting across the sky not afraid

  to make her mark on the world

  never forget

  that before

  you are anyone else’s

  you

  are

  your own i can’t make your sorrow disappear

  but i can hold you and make you forget them at least for a moment x Chapter Four Light winter

  never lasts forever her love was an ocean and i

  was just learning to swim

  learning to be happy is such a painful, long process

  sometimes it feels like the journey will never

  bring you anywhere

  i never want the sun to set on an argument between us

  no matter

  how angry we are with each other

  we have to be committed to starting fresh

  with each morning

  i think people like the idea

  of love

  as something that solves all your problems

  it isn’t

  and that’s okay romance is not for the impatient or lazy

  romance takes patience and hard work if you are not willing to build

  towards the stars

  do not bother laying a foundation in the first place the hardest days are when you have to put on a mask of happiness for the sake of those around you, but you realize by keeping them safe from worry you are only isolating yourself from their helping hands

  strength

  does not come

  from hardening your heart so much

  that nothing

  can harm it

  strength

  comes from the ability to be hurt

  and still be vulnerable still willing

  to risk pain

  for the sake of love do not be afraid to let go of people who constantly bring a cloud of negativity

  in front

  of your sun

  happiness that has been fought for and taken

  from the jaws

  of despair

  is so much more meaningful than easy happiness which flows effortlessly from a good life you may think that your struggle and your scars make you weak

  but your struggle is what will make you strong enough

  to get through anything life can throw at you i am convinced that there is

  not one thing that we could not accomplish, as long as we do it together

  i swear, my darling the way you love me

  is enough to make me believe

  in m a g i c

  i never want you to feel any doubt

  about whether or not i am here for you

  if it takes

  every second

  of every day

  i will give you all the evidence you could ever want of my devotion to you i think there is something beautiful about the way we had to struggle and work for what we have instead of having it handed to us

  never let your life
become so

  busy that you do not have time for the only person who truly matters

  you taught me to live my life

  fearlessly to be excited

  about the possibilities for good things

  instead of terrified of the things that could go wrong more than anything i just want you to know

  that knowing you has made me a better person my darling

  no matter where we are you always make me feel at home

  i feel so lucky

  that i get

  to make new memories with you

  rather than look through our pictures

  and wonder

  what might have been i want to be the one

  who is always there for you even when you feel

  completely alone

  you taught me that sometimes the most beautiful roses grow from the cracks in the concrete and not just in gardens

  if nothing else

  remember that you

  are strong enough

  to face your struggles even when it feels like you can’t

  keep

  holding on

  you can do this.

  i promise. to my readers, thank you so much for

  supporting my work and allowing me to keep writing about the only person who makes my life feel like it matters.

  if you don’t already know, my first book is called ‘her favorite color was yellow’. but i’m guessing if you’re reading this you already knew that.

  anyway, thank you and i love you all. if you want to reach out to me, you can reach me at [email protected].

  thank you.

  -edgar holmes

 

 

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